inane meanderings of the roving mind... adapting to the vicissitudes of life: my skin is so blah

Faith

"It is Jesus that you seek when you dream of happiness; he is waiting for you when nothing else you find satisfies you; he is the beauty to which you are so attracted; it is he who provokes you with that thirst for fullness that will not let you settle for compromise; it is he who urges you to shed the masks of a false life; it is he who reads in your hearts your most genuine choices, the choices that others try to stifle. It is Jesus who stirs in you the desire to do something great with your lives, the will to follow an ideal, the refusal to allow yourselves to be grounded down by mediocrity, the courage to commit yourselves humbly and patiently to improving yourselves and society..."

-Pope John Paul II-

NOTE

This blog is an online journal, not so much a photo-blog. I might put up pics of things and places, but not me.

I blog, not so much for attention, not so much for fame, but mostly for Catharsis.

I need a place to write and think. I need a place where I could write to reach out. This is it.

Because sometimes it's easier to talk to semi-strangers, than to the people who knows you. Because sometimes it's less painful to lash out to the world in general than to keep things bottled up inside.

Sensitivity may be over-rated, but sensitivity is human.

If you're a stranger who stumbles unto this, I'm warning you that part of catharsis may be offensive. This blog is personal, it's not written to cater to the tastes of it's readers. I make no apologies for what I think. It's the personal opinion and experiences of one particular authoress.

If you don't like what is written, you're welcome to walk away, no apologies required either.

Let's both be civil to one another.

Unabashedly Me

I love many things about life. In no particular order:

Faith, religion, belief. Family. Close friends. Acquaintances.

The smile of a child. Affinity with animals.

A good conversation. Languages.

A good swim, a good run. A 3-hour dancing session. The satisfaction of having done something right.

Dark chocolate. Wildflowers. White lilies. Dark red and champagne roses. Good alcohol. Scents. Perfumes. Aromatherapy.

Nice hair. Soft, moisturised skin. A caress. A touch. 5 o'clock shadow on a man.

Pretty underthings. The feel of French lace against silk, silk against French lace.

The haunting poignancy of classical music. The angst and fervour of rock. The sexy innuendo of jazz. The sweaty pulsations of r'n'b and hip hop.

Sunrise at 21 000 feet. Sunset, and moonlit walks on the beach. The feel of sand beneath my feet. Gosh, I had almost forgotten how that feels....Dancing in the rain.

Watching the silver sleet of rain lashing against the window pane, having come out from a hot bath, a steaming cup of hot chocolate (with marshmallows!!) in hand.

The kiss of sun against skin. Long, sultry evenings in shade, iced drink in hand, in the skimpiest outfit social norms would allow :p

The scent of the earth after rain. Dark, stormy nights.
Reading a good book through the night, soft music in the background. Thoughts swirling in my mind.

The boisterous company of family and friends. The painful, but precious solitude of loneliness.

Euphoria. Suffering.

Weddings. Funerals.

Laughter. Tears.

The frail vulnerability of the human heart. The strong flexibility of the human spirit.

Life's many contradictions. The exquisite torture of being human.

In my years on earth, I've learnt the important lesson that: We'll never appreciate the sweet, until we've understood the bitter.

I LIVE. I LOVE. I LUST. I AM WOMAN. I MAKE NO APOLOGIES. AND I REFUSE TO BE ASHAMED.

Nemesis' Paradoxical Quote for the Moment

Ignorance may be Bliss, but Knowledge itself is Power. Therefore, take your pick: Bliss, or Power?

How is it that:
Familiarity breeds contempt, yet
Absence makes the heart grow fonder?

How about:
Opposites attract, but
Like must marry like, or there will be no happiness?

Nemesis' Answer to 'sola scriptura':

1. “So also our beloved brother Paul wrote to you according to the wisdom given him, speaking of this as he does in all his letters. There are some things in them hard to understand, which the ignorant and unstable twist to their own destruction, as they do the other scriptures.” (2 Pt 2:15-16)

2. “So then, brothers and sisters, stand firm and hold fast to the traditions that you were taught by us, either by word of mouth or by our letter.” (2 Ths 2:15)

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

my skin is so blah

My Skin is So Blah

i hate my skin. it is so blahh... today, i decided to ask the nice pharmacist at alpro about what she thinks i should use for my crappy face. so she recommended i try avene. right... said she herself uses it, and none of the customers she had recommended it to had any complaints so far. so being the sucker that i am, i got it. well, if this doesn't work, it's yasmin for me. fuck... except i might as well be getting laid, too, if i start using OCPs, right? sighs.... i hope my parents do not read my blog :p

on a happier note, i went to http://www.myheritage.com/FP/Company/tryFaceRecognition.php and it turns out that i look like, among others...: well, check this out for yourself

in this pic, anne looks like boa, and sharine looks like ai otsuka... i dunno who :p

i got tired of writing comments :p but OMG! i look like a MAN... matthew lillard... oh GAWD....

i think they match the mouth...?

13 comments:

Bren said...: which products exactly u'r using now?avene is quite gud, especially their diacneal which contains retinaldehyde,a derivative of retin-a.however, when u start using it, u MAY PURGE from it, i.e. get pimples so use it sparingly n jus to b on d safe side,use it every other nite first n then slowly build up to every nite when u think ur skin can take it.ders lots of info here: http://www.makeupalley.com/user/notepad/tetrakis/ (u may hv to sign up to view it).i'm using it n hoping it helps wif d scars n also for prevention. i've used cleanance k n it's rubbish (am trying another product for d much needed bha n wil let u know if it's any gud).d cleanser n toner r ok.but i'm most hopeful wif d diacneal..to c it's full effects,nid at least 3 mths so im keeping my fingers crossed. :); 30 August, 2006 09:13
Anonymous said...: *suppresses laughter*

okay i can't help it.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAH; 30 August, 2006 10:46
sharon said...: eh dida why dun put ur pic into the collage? then we can see the similarities better...; 30 August, 2006 21:31
nemesis-on-fire said...: bren: cleanance, bren, cleanance.sighs...

smelly: fark u!!!

shay: :p dowan.... dowan put my pic up. ehehe....; 31 August, 2006 00:27
Bren said...: ic..mayb u'll get better results out of it lar.diffrent ppl diffrent mar. :) but u shud get diacneal 2 lar.imo.n their sunscreens pretty gud..but very shiny but heard it provides much better protection against uva compared to american sunscreens.; 31 August, 2006 13:01
Anonymous said...: i dunno if all these cream thingies work. When in doubt see a plastic surgeon! I hear microdermabrasion is gud. Just dun go the way of the nasty chemical peels *hear bad stories about that one* Apparently now they have these lipos u can do during lunch and they're £600 a pop, very tempting. But I see how eating healthy goes first, cos less expensive but results take longer. SOBB!!(my obsession is about my belly, can u tell?). Besides, that LV bag is £685. Lipo or LV? Man, I sound scarily like a Carrie Bradshaw clone.; 01 September, 2006 04:39
Anonymous said...: dida: kristin kreuk is gorgeous. u are her lookalike NO NEED AVENE ANYMO LA!; 01 September, 2006 04:48
Bren said...: LV LV LV LV LV LV; 01 September, 2006 10:14
nemesis-on-fire said...: bren: but me already occasionally using retin-a cream. don't need diacneal liao, no?

yerdeh: CHEH!! i WHERE GOT look like kristin kreuk?? siao! :p blah... don't really like kristin kreuk. me prefers jessica alba. now i don't think she's that great :p i liked her best in Dark Angel. HAWT HAWT HAWT.... whooo.... :) dunno why i like the latinas....

Oh, and of COZ LV LV LV LV LV LV LV LV LV LV LV LV LV LV LV LV LV :D that was a no-brainer, girl! or perhaps ;) CHANEL CHANEL CHANEL CHANEL CHANEL :D

OH! where's me postcard? *smacks Ah Lau :D*; 02 September, 2006 01:35
Bren said...: yerdeh: yar man! wers my postcard??? *double smack*

dida:if u'r already using retin-a then no nid diacneal.bear in mind tho that the base of d retin-a cream (if u'r using d same one as i am lar) is comedogenic.dats y i stopped using it,coz it used to break me out.but u shud b using it regularly, not occasionally.d effects of retin-a is suppose to b cumulatv n if u stop for mo than 2 days,then ur skin kinda regress.also, it's anti-ageing so kill 2 birds wif one stone lor. ;); 02 September, 2006 22:52
Anonymous said...: er postcards *sweating* coming la!! hey bren, i dun have ur addy. dida at least gave me her addy so i cud send her post cards!!; 03 September, 2006 04:32
nemesis-on-fire said...: bren: oh yar? hmm.... i used retin-a cream before, never broke out leh.

yerdeh: hehe... better fast fast snailmail to us! ;) we laps u!!! :p; 04 September, 2006 13:56
Bren said...: yerdeh: thot i gives u already...#8-601, Blk 341 Woodlands Ave 1, 730341 singapore. *gleeful anticipation*...i wans a huge cute postcard pls!!tahnk ye thank ye! hehe; 09 September, 2006 12:35