inane meanderings of the roving mind... adapting to the vicissitudes of life: People moving forward

Faith

"It is Jesus that you seek when you dream of happiness; he is waiting for you when nothing else you find satisfies you; he is the beauty to which you are so attracted; it is he who provokes you with that thirst for fullness that will not let you settle for compromise; it is he who urges you to shed the masks of a false life; it is he who reads in your hearts your most genuine choices, the choices that others try to stifle. It is Jesus who stirs in you the desire to do something great with your lives, the will to follow an ideal, the refusal to allow yourselves to be grounded down by mediocrity, the courage to commit yourselves humbly and patiently to improving yourselves and society..."

-Pope John Paul II-

NOTE

This blog is an online journal, not so much a photo-blog. I might put up pics of things and places, but not me.

I blog, not so much for attention, not so much for fame, but mostly for Catharsis.

I need a place to write and think. I need a place where I could write to reach out. This is it.

Because sometimes it's easier to talk to semi-strangers, than to the people who knows you. Because sometimes it's less painful to lash out to the world in general than to keep things bottled up inside.

Sensitivity may be over-rated, but sensitivity is human.

If you're a stranger who stumbles unto this, I'm warning you that part of catharsis may be offensive. This blog is personal, it's not written to cater to the tastes of it's readers. I make no apologies for what I think. It's the personal opinion and experiences of one particular authoress.

If you don't like what is written, you're welcome to walk away, no apologies required either.

Let's both be civil to one another.

Unabashedly Me

I love many things about life. In no particular order:

Faith, religion, belief. Family. Close friends. Acquaintances.

The smile of a child. Affinity with animals.

A good conversation. Languages.

A good swim, a good run. A 3-hour dancing session. The satisfaction of having done something right.

Dark chocolate. Wildflowers. White lilies. Dark red and champagne roses. Good alcohol. Scents. Perfumes. Aromatherapy.

Nice hair. Soft, moisturised skin. A caress. A touch. 5 o'clock shadow on a man.

Pretty underthings. The feel of French lace against silk, silk against French lace.

The haunting poignancy of classical music. The angst and fervour of rock. The sexy innuendo of jazz. The sweaty pulsations of r'n'b and hip hop.

Sunrise at 21 000 feet. Sunset, and moonlit walks on the beach. The feel of sand beneath my feet. Gosh, I had almost forgotten how that feels....Dancing in the rain.

Watching the silver sleet of rain lashing against the window pane, having come out from a hot bath, a steaming cup of hot chocolate (with marshmallows!!) in hand.

The kiss of sun against skin. Long, sultry evenings in shade, iced drink in hand, in the skimpiest outfit social norms would allow :p

The scent of the earth after rain. Dark, stormy nights.
Reading a good book through the night, soft music in the background. Thoughts swirling in my mind.

The boisterous company of family and friends. The painful, but precious solitude of loneliness.

Euphoria. Suffering.

Weddings. Funerals.

Laughter. Tears.

The frail vulnerability of the human heart. The strong flexibility of the human spirit.

Life's many contradictions. The exquisite torture of being human.

In my years on earth, I've learnt the important lesson that: We'll never appreciate the sweet, until we've understood the bitter.

I LIVE. I LOVE. I LUST. I AM WOMAN. I MAKE NO APOLOGIES. AND I REFUSE TO BE ASHAMED.

Nemesis' Paradoxical Quote for the Moment

Ignorance may be Bliss, but Knowledge itself is Power. Therefore, take your pick: Bliss, or Power?

How is it that:
Familiarity breeds contempt, yet
Absence makes the heart grow fonder?

How about:
Opposites attract, but
Like must marry like, or there will be no happiness?

Nemesis' Answer to 'sola scriptura':

1. “So also our beloved brother Paul wrote to you according to the wisdom given him, speaking of this as he does in all his letters. There are some things in them hard to understand, which the ignorant and unstable twist to their own destruction, as they do the other scriptures.” (2 Pt 2:15-16)

2. “So then, brothers and sisters, stand firm and hold fast to the traditions that you were taught by us, either by word of mouth or by our letter.” (2 Ths 2:15)

Monday, September 18, 2006

People moving forward

People moving forward

A friend of mine finally had her dream come true. And all her prayers answered after so many years. She's going off to India to pursue her dreams of becoming a doctor :) I say, good for her! It took her so much sacrifice, and so many years to get here. I'm very impressed. And humbled.

On another note, two good friends of mine have just got unofficially engaged. I'm not mentioning names, because I'm sure they'd like others to hear it from them, rather than from me, but to them, I say: Congratulations!! It's about time :D Hehehe...

You, Me and Dupree was rather slow :P but it picked up speed towards the end. And Kate Hudson is soooo pweetttiiieeee.... It makes up for a lot :P

10 comments:

Anonymous said...: man, u better announce soon who the engaged ones are ...cos u, bren and sharon are my only news source in msia! :)

yeah man, kate hudson is pretty! I think even more so when she smiles!! if she doesn't smile then kinda average. but her smile is like whoaaaaaaa; 18 September, 2006 20:40
nemesis-on-fire said...: yeah.... kate got a BRILLLLLLIIIANT smile :)

oh no worries, the 2 i was talking about aren't kuchingites :D

but this year we have like, what, 11 wedding/ engagements in our year? scary laaa.... :D

jenny, jojo, nancy&kenny, charles, kiran, edward, joeliu, a couple from C class, alamak, chong kin fah :P 2 of my classmates from uni. yikes, man.... scary.... note that these ppl are like 24, 25, 26 :P hmmm... maybe I got my priorities all wrong, n i should be husband-hunting. HAHAHA!!! but but.... i just can't get past years of pre-conditioning :) study, get a stable job, THEN settle down; 18 September, 2006 21:09
Anonymous said...: yeah man, EXACTLY in that order. have to get a job then settle down. and even when u get a stable job, dun get married too quickly, need to climb the ladder first!

Man, i shudder at the tot of being married. cos at that moment we become our mothers...which aint too bad, jst that it means we are going to be OLDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahaha, sorry ma.

then after that what? have kids, work summore then what??????????????????

life seems so short.

shit dida, u making me depress! like all there is to life is work, have kids, eat, sleep, shit and then grow old and die.

omigod, that cannot be my epitaph on my tombstone!! MUST DO MORE WITH LIFE!!; 18 September, 2006 23:43
nemesis-on-fire said...: Gawd, woman! don't be a goose :) i think we're as yet unprepared to be married, perhaps that's why i'm a lil commitmentphobic :P if i'll be perfectly honest with myself. maybe i'm a lil afraid a man might tie me down. or rather, i'd tie myself down when i have a man in my life. maybe that's why i'm content to be single, although i whine about never having had a bf. hehehe...

but i do believe in taking things step by step. such a huge commitment need not hamper a woman, i think marriage n children can stretch and fulfil a woman. it just depends on whether or not said woman is prepared or willing to have a paradigm shift, n make some compromises.

i think it also depends on what a woman finds important in life. our mothers were happy settling down n having a family at 23/ 24 :P we, on the other hand, want to pursue so much more. i feel incomplete, still. i think i'd feel incomplete even if i have a good man to snuggle in bed with now, with a diamond solitaire on my finger. i want to do so much more with my life!

:D there's more to life than work, and family in just that sense of the word. we can touch the lives of the people around us. our work can be an extension of our dreams and hopes. there's so much to live for. there's so much more we can offer.

we mustn't let our dreams crumble and die. carpe diem :) carpe noctum, too! ;) live life with passion, no? we are, after all, women. hear us roar! *with a wink and a nod to Savante about his Ain't No Other Man post* lol :)

not all women are waterlilies, k? we don't all float tranquilly in ponds and sway to the movement of the winds in our lives :) we have dreams, and ambition, too! life is precious, and time is so short!; 19 September, 2006 02:38
Bren said...: dida: i dun mind a man tying me down...especially if it's to a bed n der r some naughty pleasures to b had. hahahhahaha....sori, naughty naughty bren.

anyways, i was jus saying to my housemate yunita, who is planning to get married next year, not to hv kids so fast coz i've seen some of d ppl our age (d one who had "accidents") hv kids n age 5 yrs in d span of one. no anti-ageing products is ever going to get ur youthful health n looks back after d onslaught of kids. *shudder*

yerdeh:i am ur news source in Singapore.wer d only news to b had is abt me.hahahaha...ain't no one stealing my thunder here at least!!; 19 September, 2006 09:24
Sharon said...: marriage - kids = bliss; 19 September, 2006 14:46
nemesis-on-fire said...: yeap. but if she DOES plan to have kids, have them preferably before 30 :D don't have kids if u still have many plans, n if u aren't ready for the responsibility. hehe... i wonder how my mom managed to look relatively young? hmmm.....; 19 September, 2006 15:20
nemesis-on-fire said...: bren: never knew u were into mild BDSM ^.- ahem.... mind sharing other interesting fantasies of urs? hehehe...

dk: =D i'll be honest, i want babies. but not yet, not yet :) still got a lot of things to do before i start being the picture of domestic bliss (squabbling babies, n hair in complete disarray!! haha); 19 September, 2006 15:24
Bren said...: dida: i am open to all manner of things. *ahem*
i think u can wait to hv kids until d age of 35 lar...medical technology being wat it is now.30 too close n scary..only 5yrs away from us, u know.; 19 September, 2006 15:48
nemesis-on-fire said...: bren: no no no, having seen all kinds of weird foetal anomalies, i m frightened :P hehehe.... yeah, i know 5 years, but, hmm.... you never know what can happen in 5 years :)

as for all manner of things. WHAT kind of things, again? :D; 20 September, 2006 02:04